Choose Life

"Today I choose life. Every morning when I wake up I can choose joy, happiness, negativity, pain... To feel the freedom that comes from being able to continue to make mistakes and choices - today I choose to feel life, not to deny my humanity but embrace it." - Kevyn Aucoin

I few days ago, I woke up at 6 am and drove to Taylor's Falls to take some photos. I didn't bring anyone, but I found that I quite liked being alone. Lately, I've felt pretty unmotivated, but deciding to choose life - to choose to wake up and do something that makes me happy - that was a game changer. I'm sitting at home with strep right now waiting to not be contagious anymore, but i'm enjoying taking some time to go through my pictures and get inspired. Take a peek at my little adventure below

The Future

It's okay to be scared. Right now, at this exact moment, I have no idea where I am going. And I feel a lot of fear.

"It is not in the stars to hold our destiny, but in ourselves." - William Shakespeare

Sorry - let's get some context here.

Possibilities. It's a class I am taking right now at school. The class is packed with quizzes: personality quizzes, skills quizzes, career quizzes, work value quizzes. SO MANY QUIZZES. The anticipation is high - filling in the tiny answer bubbles on the screen. I'm thinking over and over - this is going to tell me what to do. But it never does. I'd say the quiz doesn't work on me. That would be a lie. I agree with all of it: the personality (INTP) and the skills, and the work values. But in the end, the thing that I've realized is that however helpful these quizzes are, none of them can give me the answer I want to hear. This has pushed me to come to the conclusion that it's all me. Much like Tris from Divergent, I am entirely in control of my future. And it is completely possible that I will choose wrong.

MY GOALS FOR 2015

1. Take Risks
I've spent the majority of my life being scared; I've been scared of the new, of throwing up, of having anxiety attacks, etc. Every day I come to the realization that being scared is getting me nowhere. I am struggling down the same faded path over and over again. In 2015 I am going to take risks; I am going to be bold. I plan to face what scares me and just do it.